I’m reminded of grace
As the year comes to an end, it’s important to pause and reflect on how your 2016 journey has been. You sure rolled up your sleeves and got ready to dive into whatever life would bring your way.
For some, it has been a kind of a roller coaster ride with barely no rest but you survived it. You are certainly having that “glad it is almost over” kind of feeling. You just cannot wait to breathe.
This year has been quite an eye-opening for me. I have experienced extreme highs and lows, happy moments, sad moments and some pretty shocking ones; but one particular thing that has gripped me all along is the process I asked God to take me through mid this year.
You reach a certain point in your life and you just want ‘Excellent’ spelled loud in all areas of your life, especially spiritually.
I yearned for a deeper relationship with God, prayed for my faith and trust in Him to increase. In between I paused, trials and temptations swelled up. I spelled TOUGH when I looked around failing to realize that this was growth season.
I wasn’t happy, I paused to examine if I was praying the wrong way, matter of fact I was getting good at it; praying more, Bible reading, my quiet time was improving.
The pause; yes, I sadly paused it all, why pray then go through such a trying period , I NEVER requested for that. Later, I will learn, I certainly requested it all. Didn’t I pray daily for growth, constantly to go deeper, why then did I expect a smooth sail? Oh how blinded I was!
Faith. At this point I was not exercising any of it.
As I wasn’t ready for the ‘hilly valleyed’ path, I charted out my own. I thought it would work. Don’t we all want our plans to work?
Now I was ‘running me’. It was a ‘this is what I am doing God’ kind of life and as expected I made a lot of mistakes many of which I could have evaded had I chosen to stick to His plan. The saddest bit was the fact that I continued like this for some time. I later found it laughable not allowing The One Who knows my tomorrow to run my life.
With my ‘good’ plan I slid, fell and stayed in the dreadful pit. I chose to forsake Him but He never did me. He always was by ‘my pit’ lending me a hand to lift me off; Oh, But my PRIDE!
The struggle was REAL.
Well, I did get back up after sometime and intervention. No more ‘push and pull’. Finally I allowed Him to take the wheel.
I took on a plan of action. Call it deliberate plan of action. This is me realizing I cannot do stuff on my own but rather allow God to help me know me, help me find me, help me find a path, my path, my way, my own way.
PEACE overwhelmed me.
The process is seemingly hard, tough and all kinds of rough but there is this peace I have been experiencing while at it.
There is a lot of pain involved due to pruning and cutting off unwanted branches not forgetting the heat while going through the potters for hardening, strengthening, and refining.
Every time I am reminded I will need the process of growth for my purpose and destiny. So no matter what comes my path, I’m always encouraged by the fact that the Lord will be with me every step of the way.
Process, no one wants it. We all want the achievement, the gain but not what’s in between, not the pain, not the fight. If there was a way I can wake up to my next big thing, my destiny my purpose, I mean how perfect that would be.
The Lord, actually, doesn’t work with perfect. He perfects the imperfect.
As the year ends and we step into 2017, I am ready to roll up my sleeves. Always allowing Him to hold my hand lead me on.
Yes there will be mountains and valleys, I purpose to face it all for He has promised to never forsake me. Mine is not to worry on what concerns God rather have faith, trust, hope, pray, read His word; push through and fight for His grace will surely sustain me.
“God’s Love is so strong, available and stabilizing that we can confidently step into each day knowing that the good things are gifts from His hand and the challenges can be faced in His strength. For all of life, His love is what matters most”
Romans 15:13 “May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit”